all of this, sadly, closely parallels the rest of my life. i am barely treading water at this point. work is crazy. liam's new school is crazy. my volunteer commitments are crazy. tennis is crazy. i recently discovered the timer feature in my car which keeps track of the time i'm driving, cumulatively from one trip to the next. after i saw in one week the amount of time i spend in my SUV, i can say that driving is crazy.
and on top of all of this craziness that is just our life in general, we are dealing with this:
and that's the craziest thing of all. how do we decide when it's time to let super go? do we wait until she's having accidents on a daily basis? until we physically cannot continue to carry her 55-pound body up and down the stairs? until the kids are ready to say goodbye? if that's the case, i don't know that we'll ever make that fateful trip to the vet. liam's a wreck, pleading with us on a daily basis to wait just a little bit longer, while he dissolves into tears. and if i'm honest, i'm not quite ready to be in this house day-in and day-out without my little brown sidekick. so i give into liam easily, unable to take that final step.
maybe it's a good thing i've been away from here for a while. september hasn't been sunshine and rainbows, friends. but october is right around the corner, bringing with it, i hope, brighter days, even if they're shorter. until then, i'll leave you with this image of our three children, enjoying a fun weekend afternoon -- ironically, surrounded by chalk sunshine and rainbows.
which is a perfect reminder that amidst the craziness, there's beauty all around us, if we just open our eyes to see it.
