there was a time in my life when i didn't think i wanted to have a girl. the reasons are few and, i can admit now, totally irrational; i think i was mostly so head-over-heels in love with liam that i couldn't imagine having anything other than boys. but then i gave birth on may 18, 2006 ... and every one of those stupid reasons went flying out the window as i stared into susanna's eyes.
i thought of all of this, briefly, last week at the nail salon while i treated myself to a pedicure, badly needed before heading down to the beach for my little brother's wedding. because while liam was at home with chris, hitting golf balls in the back yard and discussing random sports trivia and undoubtedly doing boy things like sons and fathers do ... i was holding my daughter in front of me on the cushy seat, our four feet swirling together in the warm water of the basin, our hands intertwined. such a simple activity, but one best shared by mother and daughter. and i felt, again, immensely blessed to have a girl. amazing how God has a plan for you and His plan is always right.
[it goes without saying that OF COURSE she chose bubblegum pink polish. and OF COURSE she requested painted white flowers on her big toes (which i find totally tacky on adults but for some reason so sweet on little girls). and OF COURSE she now wants to do this on a regular basis.]
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i feel this way constantly about nico. i NEVER wanted a boy, even when i was in labor i was somewhat wishing he'd come out a girl. but as soon as he was out and i looked at him, it was like, "of course, here you are--my boy." and i love him so much and in such different ways than i love alexandra. it is just always amazing, isn't it? and, so lucky to have one of each. i'm thankful for that all. the. time.
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